Thank you very much.

Travel slowly in the darkness and wrap your arms around the fear. You will adjust and find shadows that echo the eternal light that beats within us all. God and nature will cease to exist and maybe the only thing left is a timelessness that touches every existence. No beginning, no ending, just being.

Interesting writing.

What is the time reference of “LATELY, those dreams have turned dark?” The last 10 years, 5 years, 2 years, 2 months, 2 weeks, 2 days?

with love,
amy

I have a quick question. What did you mean by, “Experience of new”? Did you mean the hope of a NEW life. I think this may be what you meant b/c you used the words “dreams of freedom” in the same sentence?

I find quiet time– without computers, TV, others around, challenging to sit in.

A lot of what you write about, I also feel at times. For me, I think I have figured out, is a loss of HOPE. A loss of hope that is deep, dark and empty. For me when I feel hopeless it seems the only relief from the emptiness will come through death. Not a self inflicted death, but more of a…I wouldn’t mind if it happened tomorrow.

I too used to have shiney lofty dreams for my life. I am not sure when in my 30s I realized it was created in my head, and where I sat is what my life really was– but it was and has been hard to find hope, or a spark that is sustainable since that time. There are glimpses or moments; but that is all.

Somewhere in my core, and this is the first time I have tried to put this into words, I believe hope for life comes through looking outside ourselves through serving others. In these moments of serving, we are humbled and are forced to recognized our blessings as real. I find it hard to look outward, when hopeless, but think in this lies many answers.