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So Much Beauty

“It was one of those days when it’s a minute away from snowing and there’s this electricity in the air, you can almost hear it. And this bag was, like, dancing with me. Like a little kid begging me to play with it. For fifteen minutes. And that’s the day I realized there was this entire life behind things, and… this incredibly benevolent force, that wanted me to know there was no reason to be afraid, ever. Video’s a poor excuse, I know. But it helps me remember… and I need to remember… Sometimes there’s so much beauty in the world I feel like I can’t take it, like my heart’s going to cave in.” – Ricky

“I’d always heard your entire life flashes in front of your eyes the second before you die. First of all, that one second isn’t a second at all. It stretches on forever, like an ocean of time. For me, it was lying on my back at Boy Scout Camp, watching falling stars. And yellow leaves from the maple trees that lined our street. Or my grandmother’s hands, and the way her skin seemed like paper. And the first time I saw my cousin Tony’s brand-new Firebird. And Janie… and Janie. And… Carolyn. I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me, but it’s hard to stay mad when there’s so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I’m seeing it all at once, and it’s too much. My heart fills up like a balloon that’s about to burst. And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it. And then it flows through me like rain. And I can’t feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life. You have no idea what I’m talking about, I’m sure. But don’t worry, you will someday.” – Lester

From the movie, American Beauty.

1 comments On So Much Beauty

  • After watching American Beauty for for the first time, I felt a slight shift inside me. It changed the lense in which I looked at the world. Everything tilted a little. For example, anytime I see a blowing bag in the wind, it is like I am watching the breath of life itself. The movie gave me this vision– and I am grateful for this!

    I love that Lester found his solace, and it was not in the material things of the world, or being super strong superman, or getting the girl. But rather it was in the realization of where the true beauty of life lies– in the simple moments where you are simply living. These are the moments that are beautiful.

    Here are some of my beautiful moments:
    – Once, on a fall afternoon, my grandma with pure joy said “Amy” when I walked in the door of her house.
    – Watching the Northern Lights on a crisp winter night in NH, snow flakes falling all around, with my sister Allison.
    – Watching the crowd sing “40” at the end of a U2 concert in Scotland. I went to the concert by myself. I was overwhelmed by the beauty of the concert ending in pure peace.
    – Teaching someone how to swim.
    – Holding hands with my sister Allison during the song ‘one’ at a U2 concert
    – Talking with my best friend Tammy.
    – The love I feel around my friend Tammy.
    – The hugs of my nephews.
    – Floating on my back in the pool one summer… The world was silenced by the water in my ears and I could only hear my breath. I floated and watched the clouds move for an hour.
    – High-fives with my trainer after a workout.
    – Driving in my convertible on summer nights, when I was 16, listening to music and talking with Keith.
    – A hug Keith gave me at the airport, after I had been out of town for a week, where he breathed me in.
    – The happiness I feel from my dad anytime he sees me.
    – Talking with a friend at their apartment, the wind blowing through the windows, feeling peace for the first time in months, drinking chai tea.

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